Life seems to be always playing around.
everything seems so peaceful for that one second and the next , everything seems so wrong.
human love laughters of people.
isn't that ironic , laugh yourself then , its not the same
like what Life means.
Life causes people to have different way of perspective towards it.
But its for one to choose , just like choosing coffee in starbucks.
If you're happy you tell self that everything is going well.
Life causes human to change , in terms of everything and anything.
Always seeking the stimulus to cause yourself to change for the better.
this can never happened to some.
This surreailty seems so perfect , but its not and it will never be.
everything is just a picture , it seems to ace.
some times when you are alone in life , thoughts flood your mind.
if you're clever you use that to reflect upon yourself or be imaginative.
but others choose to dwell on the solemn and sad presence.
give me the choice , would i choose to be here?
my answer , without any hestitation , would be yes.
life might be like tidal waves , pulling people back away.
but it really voice down to how you look at it.
changing your grave into a stepping stone , its about determination.
life is about what you want , what you feel , you don't have to follow the crowd to be secure.
some people say that im abnormal , im not.
im just being myself , i talk what i want without holding back.
some love to beat around the bush , let me say that life will play it back to you.
whats the point? , life isn't that complicated as you think it is.
human stress themself as they think their stress.
but my dear friends , like what i say.
Life isn't as complicated as you think it is.
trust me , or its up to you.
you choose.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
singapore idols never worked well ,
i think its more of discouraging some of those talented people.
take a look for Nurul Huda and Janah , i'm sure their much better than farhan , like what ken said.
so after all singaporeans are dying to have a idol as their friend.
well felt kinda pity for Nurul Huda and Janah , Nurul Huda has the best voice in all the season so far.
Alright people , went to school today.
same usual stuff , school is getting bored.
Can't wait to get out of it.
Well , i think im most probably gonna work , travelling overseas with liz and cheryl
during november so gotta work.
moolah come rolling in please.
alright.
tomorrow going for a swim with liz , cheryl and louise at laguna.
alright people im too tired to blog.
you're delusional
I'd wait it out for you.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
remember the day that you will alone.
feeling so timid about everything while all the possible outcomes
flood your tiny winy mind.
standing alone , in front of the vast ocean.
the smell of the sea breeze that lingers around your nose just slow your mind down.
everything starts to tear down infront of you as the rain pour.
the dark gloomy clouds , the deep blue ocean and the cold atmosphere.
trying to calm yourself down in this hetic world.
as soon as your heart sank and everything starts to slow down , tears started to stain your cheeks.
you find all the possible reason to ask yourself why is this thing happening to you , while blaming everything that cause this to happen including yourself.
feeling sick and tired of life , thoughts of drowning yourself appear.
but yet something is holding you back.
a feeling so strong that can cause you to hold back despite of all this hectic problems.
suddenly you felt that you have found the answer to everything.
everything starts to stop for a moment.
the answer for me is ignorance , how about you people?
you're delusional
I'd wait it out for you.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Its the second day of hell lot of drama from you.
The hinting and stuff.
You dont blame people for being the way they are , rather you should get blame for being effing sensitive.
Well , you do things to get accept? , more of like trying too hard to fit in some times.
I wonder why you're always telling lies and proclaim that others does that too.
White lies = paper. A piece of white paper will never be able to cover over a fluming red flames.
Not everyone except white lies.
Like i said it is easy to tear you down , we are not trying to be mean first you started the ball rolling.
its always because of your lies.
maybe you might think its white lies , so? its still lie.
you love to delete evidence.
you treat friends as come and go , vice versa for you. friends come and go for you too.
nothing is as important as your lust , let me repeat it , L-U-S-T.
to;wonder of wonders.
Xoxo, RaysonElectra.
you're delusional
I'd wait it out for you.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
its ironic , always acting strong but still weak on the inside and you're showing everything out.
its not like what you presume , it never was,
wonder of wonders you are if you were to be label.
but not to the extend that you will catch all eyes on you , thats the moxie for you to turn out this pathetic way.
like what dog does , it always return to its vomit after throwing up , its the same for you.
nobody will pity you if this is what you choose.
you are not as cunning as you think , you never can be.
you stab me in the back twice and i think i never can trust you anymore.
yes you can be blur at times , thats all an act.
your acting skills wont pass my eagle eyes.
you''re a sandcastle not a bridge , as the waves comes , you'd be all gone.
its easy to tear you down.
its seriously easy , like a 20 year old singing the alphabet song.
i never thought that you would be like a ...?
well you''re not in the group of whore , sluts and bitch.
congrats to you , you're damn unqiue like you always want to be.
you came out with something new like ?
i guess its not worth for you to have such a creative person to help think a name for you , like me.
xoxo, RaysonElectra.
you're delusional
I'd wait it out for you.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Being somebody famous isn't everything.
I wonder why some of the people i know just want to be famous.
I mean if you want to be famous , let it be natural.
You don't have to come out with a fake self to be famous.
Its really annoying to see you like this.
Being unique means being yourself , its not like what you think , Trying to act as somebody who is unique to be unique.
Well , maybe i shouldn't care much.
Skipped school today , was feeling damn lethargic.
Well , scored 60 for my english overall , got first in class again. :)
I flunk most of my papers.
I guess not flunk , just that i never study for my prelims , even though n lvls are just less than two weeks away
im still not studying. geez.
some people might ask me why most of the time im positive , it is because being positive is a excuse for me to
procrastinate.
hahaa. :3
well , hope that i would be able to do well for my n lvls, its the break it or make it season.
FML.
well discussed with my parents about the after life of my n lvls.
was wondering if i should proceed to secondary 5 , or ite?
but well i want to put studying to a stop for me. i rather do things that can help me get skills.
so i decided to go for fashion design in lasalle or shatec for kitchen culinary skills.
but i dont really know any details and requirements etc.
geez , life is just like a never ending cycle , always doing things repeatedly.
if only i got the moxie to request for oversea studies.
new society and new environment.
wouldn't that be nice , its just like tearing the old page of your diary and starting to scribble over a new page.
hoping that all the past mistakes that you've done could be forgotten by people.
alright people , im heading out for dinner with my sister.
see ya. :)
you're delusional
I'd wait it out for you.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
THE BUTTERFLY , FLY AWAY.
One more minute to 5.20.a.m
Have been tossing around in my bed since 1.
Decided to wake up at around 2-3+
Caught silent hill on channel 5 , its a nice show.
The reason why im still blogging now is because
im having a really bad sore throat the worst so far in my 16 years of life
plus,
my gums are swelling.
i guess i ate too much heaty food , esp chilli sauce.
my legs are having pulling tension that really cause great pain
to me.
afterall i feel shitty today , as in really shitty.
feeling damn sicked , and im sick of this feeling.
geez , i lost my maths notes i wonder how am i going to study ltr.
somemore i will surely fall asleep ltr on.
no point going to friend house to study? , no idea.
but if by monday the illness is not going away i doubt i will be going to school
even though there is exams , anyway its just prelim.
my throat is really aching like a bitch.
you can taste blood in every slip of saliva sallowed.
annoying la , and everytime i have sore throat and stuff that gotta to make me feel uncomfortable in my mouth i always have the tendency to remove my tongue stud.
geez.
my dad was blaming me , he say because i always reach home late and always been out instead of staying at home , thats why im sick -.-'
say i everytime sleep very late , i think that i sleep the earliest in my family la.
having a really bad mood due to my fucking throat its really annoying and irritating.
fuck.
you're delusional
I'd wait it out for you.
